ocd and eating disorders
getting older and all of its issues, the one thing that feels within one's control is health. i get it now, now that i'm past 40, worried about my cholesterol, looking longingly at chips and fried snacks and berating myself for giving in when i eat a cookie, like i'm a weak-willed idiot. i know intellectually that is patently untrue, but tiny voices that smell like body shop's white musk tell me that it's my fault anyway. i'm truly scared that i'm going to develop an eating disorder.
one day at a time.